Hi there! I'm sorry, I know it's been a long time since the last time I posted something. yeah... well, sadly my first post since ages will start with a very annoying emotional post... yeah. here goes.
it's official. I have a crush on my friend from Sunday School. She's an American. She's pretty tall (around 1 cm shorter than me). She has straight, long black/brown hair. Brown eyes. Very elegant face.
the problem is, she's a year younger than me. and also, I don't have the guts to even say 'hello'. then again, I think the only word that I has ever said to her was 'sorry' (I accidentally bump into her in a crowd). I'm so miserable... --"
she doesn't even know my name... *sigh*
in conclusion, she's totally out of my league. she's Ms. Beautiful Religious American Girl, and I'm... I'm Mr. Stupid Fat And Fugly Indonesian Boy... what am I thinking? trying to win an American girl's heart? okay, if I'm a celebrity or something like that, I may have chance. but in reality I'm:
fat. I'm an Indonesian. I may not even get taller, 'cause my parents are short :(. my face is full of zits. in conclusion, I'm just... ugly. I'm nothing compared to those American boys that she could get.
*sigh*... I hate being a teenager.
Still, I can dream right? and besides, if God approves it, nothing can stop it from happening. so please, please, please, let me get her God. I really like her. I'm falling for her--really hard. Please, God...
Well, I'm gonna end this post with a poem I got from the internet, by Michelle Brooks. and also a song by The Smiths, called Please, Please, Please, Let Me Get What I Want.
"When I look at you my heart starts to race.
My head is spinning, I'm lost in your gaze.
I know nothing of the world around me,
Life is just a blur.
Your presence consumes me.
I think of your face, your laugh, your smile,
I hang on your every word.
You control my thoughts, possess my dreams.
I long for your embrace.
Not a day goes bye when I don't think of you.
If only you knew."
--Michelle Brooks
Please, please, please
Let me let me let me
Let me get what I want this time
