I Can't Stop Thinking About You

I am a real loser, huh? I can't make the woman I love to love me back. I know that this is the risk of loving someone. But...but... I just want myself to believe that she will love me back. I... I can't stop thinking about her. Do you know why did I posted this right after I woke up? I dreamt about her. Last night, I had a dream about her. She...she was pregnant. And nobody wants to take care of her. Because in that dream, she doesn't even know the father of her baby. She doesn't know how did she become pregnant and stuff like that. So... in my dream... I took care of her... I just really like her. I don't know how I dreamt about her. But there's one thing I know after dreaming about her... I don't LIKE her. I LOVE her.

Justin Bieber, drawing, dreams

good afternoon guyz. akhir2 ini, gw kok jdi seneng dengerin Justin Bieber yah? gw tau dia terkenal, dan apalah gitu. but... gw gak ngira dia bisa bikin gw jdi nge-fans sama dia. sumpah deh, dulu pas gw pertama denger suara JB, gw langsung jijik banget. I don't know why--mungkin karena suaranya kayak cewek? tapi gak tau kenapa, makin sering gw dengerin, gw malah jdi nge-fans sama dia! wkwkwkwk LOL. that baby face singer's voice was pretty good, I think.

gw makin sering menggambar. my drawings really changed, but i like it. it really gives me an old drawing feelings. rasanya kayak gambar tua gitu, dicampur sama gambar superhero modern. Iknow, gak bagus menyombongkan diri. haha. hey, gw mau naro gambar gw cuman scanner gw dipinjem. sh*t, huh? LOL. gak tau kenapa juga, gw jdi seneng gambar pemanah. mungkin gara2 film robin hood, yah? (sumpah, gw masih belom nonton filmnya!!! :p)dari semua legenda-legenda, gw paling suka robin hood. gak tau deh kenapa, yg penting gw suka cerita robin hood. apa mungkin karena gw suka sama green arrow, yah? mereka mirip, right? ngomong2 tentang film, have you watched kick-ass? It's really cool y'know. hehehe...

hey, gw tau gw kayak cewek klo gw terus2an nge-post tentang si daisy(nama samaran), tapi gw bener2 gak bisa berhenti mikirin dia. bener, gw gak bisa mikirin dia. gw suka dia dari segi manapun. meskipun dia pendek, gw suka dia. bahkan, gw sampe mimpiin dia! bener, gw pokoknya gak bisa berhenti mikirin dia deh... tapi gimana dia bisa suka gw? gak mungkin dia bisa suka gw. coba liat gw. gw gemuk. muka gw kayak anak kecil. gw jerawatan. gw cuma pinter bhs. inggris. apa yg bisa dibanggain dari gw? gw bukan apa2 diantara miliaran manusia di dunia ini. gw cuma satu manusia biasa. banyak laki-laki yg lebih baik dari gw. daisy(nama samaran) bisa milih orang lain yg lebih baik dari gw. gw rasa inilah kenyataan pahit tentang cinta itu. terkadang, berhasil, dan lalu, sangat sering, gagal. kegagalan itu ada banyak contohnya. kadang cinta itu bertepuk sebelah tangan, kadang kedua orang saling mencintai, tapi tak memiliki kekuatan untuk menyatakannya. cinta sangat menyakitkan. gw udah tau tentang resikonya, dan gw juga tidak memperdulikannya. tapi tetep aja... rasanya pahit.

so... i guess I'll see you guys in the next post...

I am a loser.

hey guys. it's been a loooong time since the last time I updated this blog.
wkwkwk.

ok, jdi... hidup gw berlangsung dgn lancar. tdk ada halangan. ok. ada halangan.
GURU gw yg bernama TAR*O. taik tuh guru. sumpah deh. rasanya klo inget dia
gw pengen bgt nyekek tuh orang. pengen gw tusuk2. pengen gw lempar dari atas gedung 100 lantai. he is VERY ANNOYING. pokoknya tuh orang klo misalnya gw lg dpt nilai
jelek, bukannya dimotivasi, eh... malah dimaki-maki. sifatnya juga nyebelin bgt.

ok... kita lewatin aja yah, bagian tar*o. so... let's talk about rubik. gw udh
mulai mahir maen rubik. best time gw 46 detik. padahal baru bisa 1 bulan. ok.

gw pengen bgt plg ke jakarta. udh sebulan gak plg. oh iya, rik, klo misalnya lo baca ini, I'm just gonna say that I miss you and everybody there. :)))

now... the main topic. I have fallen in love again. alright, go ahead. call me a playboy if you want to. yg pasti, gw itu emg gampang jatuh cinta. that's me. I don't care if you thinks I'm weird. just like I've said, this is me #nowplaying: demi lovato-this is me. wkwkwk. ok, so... about this girl that I like. gw pertama ketemu sama dia di kelas(yaialah, dia sekelas sama gw). well... bukan ketemu sih. ngeliat. gw pertama ngeliat daisy (nama samaran) di kelas. um... pas itu sih, gw ngerasa ada sesuatu gitu. cuman gw masih bingung2 gitu. maklum, waktu itu gw lg suka sama orang lain. kami pertama kali bicara sekitar bulan oktober. dia duduk di depan gw. simple2 aja sih... gw minta nomernya. nah... gw mulai yakin gw suka dia pas gw lg pacaran sama dira (nama samaran). gw gak bisa berhenti mikirin dia. from my point of view, she's very beautiful. gw yakin banget gw suka dia pas 2 minggu lalu. gw gak bisa berhenti ngeliatin dia di kelas. dude, seriously, I can't take my eyes off of her.

tentang hubungan gw ama daisy... belom ada apa2. dia itu cewek yg susah temenan sama gw n' temen2 satu genk gw. but... I won't stop trying.

that's all folks. I wish y'all a happy Sunday (which is, tommorow, or, around 1 and a half hour from now). ok, see you guys.

pipis, love, and gaul.

ps: green arrow rulez!!!. Green Arrow #1 out this June!!! Can't wait!!! *shrieks*